Nana's Magic World

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Last Monday was my first practical driving lesson.. and as usual i was a little late.
I felt like some mountain tortise wen i was there.. din knw where to go or wat to do so i went straight to the info counter ans asked the lady on how do i find my car.

She instructed me to print out a slip of paper and it'll indicate my car no etc, and so i followed her instructions. As blur as i always am, i was looking for the car everywhere coz i cldn't find alpha E!! On my right states "D" and on my left was "A-B" and straight ahead was "F-K" so i supposed E shld be ard tat area but i still cldn't find the alpha.. so anyways i stood n kept lookin for E and FINALLY FOUND MY CAR! i tink it was after 5mins or so... i felt super major blur...

So there, the driving instructor introduced himself and informed me on what he was gonna teach me for tat day. Feeling a lil sleepy still since it was a morning session (plus drizzling) he pointed the various buttons of the car explaining each uses n blah blah and even thought me how to change my own car tyres (where i tot to myself, i dun tink i'll ever change the car tyres myself.. i juz DIAL) hahaha so anyways, proceeding on, he taught me to move the vehicle..

Step 1: Wear your seat belt (duh)
Step 2: Ensure you are at neutral gear
Step 3: Turn on the engine
Step 4: Depress the clutch pedal
Step 5: Switch to gear 1
Step 6: Depress the accelerator to 2,000 on the tachometer
Step 7: Unlock the handbrake
Step 8: Gradually release the clutch till you reach the biting point

and so on... I was stressing out as my hardest part was to remain at 2,000. Worst still i had to depend on the sound and not look at my tachometer.. and.. i was having a read hard time with my handbrake manz. It's cache was so tight and so hard to lift up in order for me to push it down again...

Overall, it was a lil fun i guess? But at the end of the lesson, gosh... my left leg aches a lil from all the cluthing hahaha

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

3:24 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Life is so unpredictable as most would say.. and as for me, MY WORK LIFE IS SO BLOODY UNPREDICTABLE!

I feel drained and beginning to feel useless...

As I spend some time thinking about my job and my life, i feel misled in various ways unexplainable. Not tat my job is bad or anything, i sorta enjoy my job but something is missing!!

I'm moving outta my ambition! I'm not anywhere near my goal yet... in fact i tink i'm drifting further and further away and tat doesn't make any sense.

I wan my ACCA, but it seems outta reach. I wan some peaceful time to rest and relax and unwind, but it seems so far away.

I just wanna stay home and watch dvd the entire day or just lay in bed reading my storybooks, or maybe even cook... but i've never be able to do that...

I've picked up a new hobby thou.. JOGGING! haha Strangely, I AM JOGGING! but tat's only once a week and i just started it last wk which caused my entire body to ache like hell and i cldn't even walk properly.

I'm tryin to lead a healthy lifestyle manz.. ok excluding the smoking part..

I feel drained... like super ooo-per duper drained. 1 off day isn't enough, 24hrs free isn't enuff.. i need more time.. my own personal work is pilling like mad. I can never find the time to run down to SAA to register for the ACCA student pass.

Wat am i gonna do?? oh gosh...

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

3:43 PM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

It's amazing how time flies and to find out the truth bout some hidden and lost lies.. feels like shit knwing someone u once trusted the most and loved the most lied to you and 6mths later u discovered the lie.

Never will i trust that particular person ever again.

Den i wonder, why do i keep making the same mistake? Why do i keep believing?

Maybe i shld be asking myself, why do i let such insignificant person affect me?

"Never will i ever look back again, nor will i ever believe wat i shldn't have. Never will i blindly walk into the same exact hole i once fell".

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

4:42 PM

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Falling in love is the best thing that can ever happen to someone but it can also be the most painful experience.

What happens if the person you love the most decides to leave u? Will you just let him walk away or will you ask him to stay?

Or do you feel that u'll be loosing your face value if you ask him to stay?

Or will you change to fit into the person he wants you to be? Or is your expectation of him too high that he can't reach and he's tired of trying so hard?

A close frd of mine is going thru a break-up. N i hate knwing hw she feels yet there's seriously nothing i can do to make her feel better.

It's never easy to get thru the break-up period. The hours and mins seem so long and the days seem so hard to pass by. And like wat pple always say, "Life still goes on". But wat if life can't go on anymore coz the one person you gave ur heart to decides to walk outta ur life?

Why do men give up so easily? Or rather, why do they not keep up to their promises?

Why do men always say things like "i love u forever", or "i'll wait for you", or "i promise not to hurt u" etc... yet they dun keep up to their words.

I don't tink tat part is a package of life eh?

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

2:36 PM

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Hmm... i don't really knw what i shld write about.. there's so many things running thru my mind all at once..

I'm feeling pretty exhausted.. it's a norm. I tink im being emotional too.. i dun knw exactly y..

There's so many things i wish i could do but before i even start on it, i already feel drained. Maybe i need vitamins or some energy booster.. *wonders if it does help*

Tis is juz a random blog, i hardly knw wat rubbish i am spilling..

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

8:59 PM

Friday, June 05, 2009

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

1:47 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

It's been ages since i last had time to sit down and start typing on wat's going on in my life.

It's been a whole new, different, stressful, tired 2 months.

First and foremost, my student visa was rejected again and so i've decided to give up my tots of studying in London. At the very same time, I was offered a job. A job that pays me well and of coz it comes with loads of work.

My father was upset that i agreed to take up the job offer instead of turning it down and wait till school starts in July.

Initially I was filled with excitement over the new job position. It is a very good opportunity for me to learn various stuff and pick up many skills. However, many good things in life doesn't come free. I sacrificed my time with my family and reading and doing many things I like to do.

At present, I don't knw if i regret my decision. I did learn a lot of things while working but i feel exhausted. Mentally and physically. Sometimes on the way home, I would tink about work wondering if i missed anything out or what things are to be done the next day. And often, i'm worrying about missing out something important.

Alright now is time for me to get back to work again..

Love is an irresistable desire, to be desired

3:45 PM